Monday, 26 May 2014

Heart Beat and Bombs

Finding our hearts in the midst of Chaos

So peace-building is complicated. There are so many acts of violence in Kenya that have mysterious origins and as an average person, I have no idea how to get to the truth of what is going on, who may be responsible and what the motives are. My friends and colleagues share theories and guess about it all but we don’t have any real evidence.
And so we are left helpless as bombs get thrown into public buses and detonated in public markets killing people who are just trying to live their lives. The senselessness of it all is very disempowering for anyone committed to peace. Well, for me anyway.

There are fewer and fewer places where people can feel they can let their guard down and feel safe. Emotionally and literally. Nowhere is sure of being safe and that is something we live with.

Life is uncertain for everyone. In the west we live in an illusion that we can control what happens in our lives, and for much of our lives it seems that is true. We can work hard, get a predictable salary, and accumulate what we can afford. However, from nowhere we can get sick, someone we love dies, or something happens and our world is turned upside down.

For me, the predictability of my life in Australia was safe, but ultimately not fulfilling. I love Australia. Having just returned there for a couple of months I am in awe of how generous people are in Australia, how beautiful it is and what great systems we have (relatively speaking of course).
Speaking at International Women's Day for Firbank Grammar School in Melbourne Australia March 7th 2014

In Kenya I am reminded every day that we do not have control. The chaos is much more palpable and the uncertainty of life is everywhere. There is a buzz to the craziness and while people are worried, we still live our lives – a less expressive version of our lives, but we live it anyway.

Having spent much of my life in an environment where it is safe to be all of who I am, I am acutely aware of how much my own self expression has shrunk under the fear and mistrust that permeates us in Kenya. The last 2 years in Kenya has shown me that I am not alone in how I feel. Many people in Kenya feel constrained and unable to be themselves. This has opened an opportunity for Omni One to provide an important role in the peace building process in Kenya.
Kenya's First Festival of Dreams Program kicks off in Nairobi Feb 2014. A safe space for young people to dream and be supported through mentoring to make their dreams a reality

So we are now running programs where people can come back to their hearts, be all of who they are and feel their peace. It may sound a bit fluffy, but in this harsh environment it is so easy to forget our humanity, forget how to soften, to put the armor down and just be a human. The struggle to survive and the scramble for what seems to be very few opportunities can lead us to forget our vulnerability, our love and our gentle side. We can end up aggressive and hard. The fear hardens our hearts.

Omni One organised a trauma healing program for people affected by the Nairobi terrorist attack that occurred on September 21st 2013. The date of the attack is one I will never forget as I had organized to go to that area that evening to have dinner with my friends for my birthday.

We used 5Rhythms, Gestalt and other healing proceses together for the trauma healing program. It was so successful that we were asked to develop a retreat for counselors who have been working with the victims of the Nairobi Terrorist Attack, as many are burnt out and suffering vicarious trauma.

From the healing programs we are designing it is clear there is a gap for practitioners and NGO workers in Nairobi to get some regeneration in their work. We are also clear that body work is particularly powerful.

So we are bringing dance, the arts and play in a therapeutic space for people to come and regenerate. The way we regenerate is to be able to put down the walls and allow our spirits to be nurtured, allow our hearts to soften and connect in a safe space.


Trauma Healing Retreat for Counsellors using dance, drumming and arts
So while I am surrendering to the natural chaos that is Kenya, we are providing a small nook of support for people to heal and find their peace. 

Wednesday, 10 July 2013

Empowering Young People to Create Their Own Opportunities - An invitation for you!

A critical  element of creating peace is creating  an inclusive and empowered community. By inclusive I mean that individuals of all ethnicity  religion, gender, socio-economic and level of ability are a meaningful part of the community and have access to opportunities. The word 'empower' gets thrown around but few understand how to achieve it. 

Traditionally we think that it is through skills and resources that we empower. As a result of this we give developing countries  resources, money and train them. Yet are these countries empowered? Are they free of dependency? At Omni One we see resources and skills as a vehicle but without fuel it will go nowhere. What really empowers people then? That is a question worth asking. What is it that enables people to stand no their own two feet, become proactive in creating their future and the future of their communities?

It is a question we will continue to ask, but so far we offer the following ideas that are working very well in all communities we have worked in. Our answer is PASSION, CONFIDENCE and OWNERSHIP! Until we stop telling other people and communities what they should be doing, or stop consulting them and then doing it for them there will be no empowerment. What is needed is a space where individuals and communities can explore and ignite their own passion and realize their capacity to achieve their dreams starting with the resources they ALREADY HAVE!



I have been working in Kenya for the last 12 months, and in this time I have talked to many people about my past work on the Festival of Dreams. The sentiment of young people and stakeholders has been that Festival of Dreams is something that needs to happen in Kenya, that it is a missing piece to the puzzle of creating a peaceful, stable community. 


Like everywhere in the world, young people are a critical asset in the community. In Kenya, this asset is being wasted. Kenya has 70% of it’s population under the age of 30yo with 60% unemployment. There is poverty, drug, alcohol and politically fueled violence prominent and young people are stuck in a cycle of poverty that has existed for a long time. Jobs do not exist. In order for young Kenyans to break out of the cycle of poverty and violence they need to become masterful at creating opportunities that do not currently exist. Festival of Dreams offers young Kenyans the platform to create new opportunities and nothing like it exists in the country. 

The young people on the Dream Team at the Concept
Launch sharing issues young Kenyans struggle with
We’re aiming to raise $45,000 to kick start the first Festival of Dreams program in Kenya. This figure is the minimum amount we need to run the basic year-long project. It will give us enough time to start looking at longer term, sustainable funding sources that will ensure this incredible project can continue on in years to come, and grow to include other features like an alumni program and opportunities for past participants of Festival of Dreams to help organise and run the program. Eva Mackinley is the Fundraising Director for Festival of Dreams Kenya. Her story is below:


I was 15 when I attended the Festival of Dreams forum in Tasmania. To be honest, I didn't really know what it was at the time. I was going along because one of my friends was. I had no idea that what was to come would change my life forever.

Eva Mackinley winning Southern 
Cross Young Achiever Award
 from what she achieved through 
Festival of Dreams


At the end of that forum, I put my name down to volunteer at Festival of Dreams and spent that set of summer holidays in the office with Celia, who has become a life long friend and mentor. Over the next few years, I became deeply involved with the organisation on many levels, and it set me on a path that 15 year old me could have only imagined.

The process was simple enough. With a group of about 100 other young people from around the state, we explore our dreams for our communities. With the help of the program facilitators, learned how to turn those dreams from ideas into tangible project plans that we could take away and implement when we left the forum.

The power to create our vision for our community was completely handed to us, and for me it was the first time anyone had ever given me power over anything. I had met a group of peers who didn’t judge me, as we were all in the same situation, all unknown to each other. I could be whoever I wanted to be. I could be whatever I wanted to be.

The Dream Team at the Concept Launch. These are the
Kenyans building the project in Kenya. Everyone
is volunteering their time and resources. We all invite
you to partner with us to make this opportunity a reality
Festival of Dreams helps young people create exciting and much needed community initiatives. But, for me the true value lies in the un-measurable outcomes- being able to see what’s possible outside of the life you know, being able to think and problem solve, learning what it takes to be  leader- those are the essential by-products of the Festival of Dreams.
When Celia spoke to me a couple of months ago about her work in Kenya, and the context of the young people in that country, I immediately understood the need for Festival of Dreams to exist there
Young people in Kenya need something to empower them, to give them the space to create their own opportunities where none exist. In that way, a new generation of young people in Kenya will take ownership of their communities and work together to make positive things happen within them- simultaneously creating opportunities for themselves and breaking cycles of poverty and violence. 

Young people say THANK YOU!
I have been through this program. I know it works. I know the potential it has to change the lives of individuals and the trajectory of communities in unprecedented ways. Celia has seen and heard first hand about the need for this program to exist in Kenya.That is why we’re working hard to raise this money, that is why we've asked for your help.
We are inviting you to donate to this campaign and share this opportunity with your networks from now until September 6th. I know we can make this happen.
Thanks for reading, and we invite you to support Festival of Dreams in Kenya.  

Eva Mackinley
Festival of Dreams Kenya Funding Campaign Director




Sunday, 3 March 2013

Kenya Elections Tomorrow


Kenya in the lead up to the elections

Tomorrow Kenyans go to the polls to elect their 4th President since independence. There is an inertia across Kenya as people apprehensively await the elections on March 4th. Given that over a thousand people died in the 2007/8 elections and hundreds of thousands of people lost their homes it is not surprising that people are worried. The inertia is that generally people are not willing to commit to new projects or decide their direction until after the election. The economy grinds to a snails pace and people do not want much cash on them. Retailers do not replace stock for fear of looting. Nairobi town is quieter. The trolleys at the supermarkets are overflowing with all the staples people are buying in case they need to bunker down for the next month or so. I felt a bit stupid with my little hand basket with a packet of pasta, some chocolate and a few cans of beans. Is there something I am missing here?


Performers at Blankets and Wine advocating voting.

The inertia in Kenya is frustrating as we can’t move forward with any of our projects. It is like being in purgatory but with the uncertainty of whether we will end up in hell or we will just go back to normal after the elections.

The campaigns have been more cohesive than last time according to locals. At the last election there was not much tolerance for the diversity of parties to campaign in a tribally loyal area. This year other parties have been able to sell their polices, even if it has meant being stoned in some places. There have been a few deaths that have been attributed to politics but generally so far it has not been terrible.

Stefanie from Beyond Violence creating the pledge at the workshop
Yet the air is thick with fear. I am starting to catch it. The supermarket today was a sobering moment when I saw how packed it was with people buying food in case there was violence and they could not leave the house. My minor uneasiness has moved to moderate fear. Maybe I should leave Kenya for the elections? Visit my friends in India.


I facilitated a workshop in Kibera for youth on peace yesterday using Open Space. It was chaotic, mostly because we were disorganized and people were frustrated. The lunch did not arrive until 4pm. Hungry people are grumpy people, which is fair enough! I am grumpy when I am hungry. The whole day managing the space was hard work but some good work was done.

The theme of the workshop was ‘What are the triggers of violence in my community and what can I do to prevent it.’ The main triggers identified were tribalism and nepotism, where leaders favour people from their own family or tribe. ‘Nepotism also makes people not choose good leaders because they vote for their tribe.’
Workshop I facilitated in Kibera
 

Other triggers identified were lawlessness, being power hungry.

‘We beg our leaders to accept defeat if they lose so we can avoid violence’

The popular solutions identified to were choose leaders who stood for the unity of all Kenyans, who did not favour their own tribe, that community members preach peace, having peace concerts and forums…

Overall the response was that we are one Kenya, not a series of tribes.

While the election is one day away, on March 4th, it could be round one of a two round competition. In order to win, the Presidential candidate needs 51% of the votes. Given there are 8 candidates it is unlikely anyone will get 51%. it is likely that there will be a run off in another two weeks between the two highest voted parties. So the tension will be here for at least the next three weeks. The two most likely candidates to win are the current Prime Minister Raila Odinga (Kenya has a President and a Prime Minister as a way to bring about peace from the last elections) and the son of the first President of Kenya, Uhuru Kenyatta. Uhuru is in the international criminal courts with his running mate Ruto for crimes against humanity from the last elections. He is accused of insighting violence that led to many deaths. Raila is a candidate that many Kenyans thought should have won the last election as he was winning the count until there was a power cut and then when the power came back on, Kibaki was winning. Apparently the Chief Justice was forced to announce Kibaki’s victory at gun point before the votes had even been counted fully. So democracy in this country is at the end of a rifle or a shilling note.

Workshop in Kibera on Peace
Raila is also not squeaky clean, but he is  corrupt as he pays people to vote for him and creates lies to deface his opposition. But then again, that is normal political practise. Kenyan politicians are the highest paid in the world. While 50% of the population lives below the Kenyan standard of the poverty line and 40% are unemployed, Kenyan politicians have multiple helicopters and can afford to give out millions of dollars to win an election.


It would seem that Kenya has an absence of leadership with real vision and integrity. This is not to be blamed entirely on the politicians. Kenyans overlook  leaders if they don’t have the money to give them to buy their loyalty. It is said that in Kenya to gain power you need money, not leadership. It is highly unlikely that a poor person could ever rise through the political ranks in Kenya. So Kenya gets the leadership that is corrupt from the beginning, as to obtain the amount of money required to run for office, corruption is the usual method.

The campaigns have been making themselves visible to the community through trucks with loud music and speeches driving through the streets and giving out money. Advertising is everywhere. Every free space seems to be taken up with posters of candidates.

Dan the Magician at a school in Babadogo
Kenya’s current political structure gives the President a huge amount of power but that is supposed to change after the election. There is a new constitution that will be implemented after the election that marks the devolution of power to a small extent to the 47 counties. Kenya is in a period of transition. Done well, this will mean more democracy and power to the people. Done badly it will just spread the capacity for corrupt government employees to use tax payers money for their own agenda at the expense of the community.


Time will tell what happens. There is a general sense of people voting and returning to their homes to hide tomorrow. Let's hope that like Dan, the magician with the young girl in the photo above, what appears is something that delights and inspires wonder for the future. We will see….

Sunday, 23 December 2012

Reflections on Conflict In Kenya

Team Meeting 

Working in the Kenyan context is like having the rug pulled out from under me over and over again. People talk the talk and the actions don’t match. Things seem money driven. From a Spiral Dynamics Integral (SDi) perspective (for info http://www.spiraldynamics.net/), the vMemes (core values) are strong red (individualistic, egocentric and power to the strongest). There is purple in there but only from a red perspective. The tribal element (purple) is mostly because they think that they will get what they want only if their tribal leaders are in power. So the tribal card is played by politicians and the people follow because their experience is that ‘when my person is in power it is our turn to eat’ – a phrase I have heard many people say. So it is all about survival and self interest at so many levels. To have a competitive political democracy in a culture where there is corruption and competitive tribal elements is like putting a match to petrol. The political structure is used to create tribal divisions so the powerful few can get into power.

Theme of Peacebuilding Workshop with Kuza Africa
Kuza Africa Workshop
From an SDi perspective, theoretically one would say that we need more blue, more infrastructure and mechanisms to mitigate the self interest. However I am learning the depth of vMemes systems. They are core. There is no point trying to impose a system to fix a problem because if the core vMemes are at a different level. The community will not be genuinely interested or ready and it will not work. In Kenya structures are put in place such as ‘The Anticorruption Commission,’ a legal system, and rules/regulations, but they are ineffective as the red value system runs through them. So they are corrupt and therefore they become another mechanism to express self interest. The police force is structured for corruption. For example, if a motorist breaks the law the police officer cannot fine the person on the spot. The police officer has to take the driver to the police station and process it there, then the driver goes to court and will be given the sentence in court. All this for a speeding ticket. Neither the motorist nor the police want the hassle of going to police station, the paperwork and court, so the driver can bribe the police and be let go. It is an industry as I have been told that the senior officers give the police on the street bribe quotas to meet every day.

Kuza Africa Workshop
And in the immigration department the officer looking after my file would not tell me how long the permit would take to process as he said it can vary depending... that I could ‘chip in’ (where his words). This is after he had been trying to hold my hand and wanted me to go to dinner with him so I got the package deal of harassment and wanting a bribe. Lucky me. It is a horrible power dynamic as this man could bury my file if I don’t play along. So I found someone else to assist me (which was not easy) who gave me all the information I needed in 2 minutes.

I suspect that the amount of money that changes hands through corruption would be a lot more than the official economy. It is on every level as the police get money from the matatu drives so the matatu drivers can get away with breaking the law, people in community projects organise with hotels and other services to get a commission for themselves when they pay the bill, and receipts are meaningless to anyone except the tax department as retailers are bribed to say that the amount was more than was actually paid. Much of the violence and killings starts with young people being paid by those in power and the attitude of the young people is that if they are paid they will kill, no question.

There is a sense of the community taking the law into their own hands. If a petty thief robs someone in the street and the community sees it, the community members will chase the thief and often kill them. I heard a story where a thief was robbing houses in an estate. The householders caught him and set him on fire. When the police arrived the police officer said that it would be a lot better if the community members finished him off before calling the police, so the policeman went away until the community had killed the thief. And this is all on the ground level. The community blames the politicians and police for corruption, but there is no need to go up the power hierarchy to find corruption and violence, it is everywhere.
Peace Workshop Open Space

At the gym I have been going to I have befriended a lovely woman from South America who has set up a business in Kenya. I was sharing some difficulties I was having with conflict and stories being created that are dividing the team I am in. She said that there is no way to escape corruption or to escape from employees stealing from the business, it is something that you just need to manage closely. This is sobering and a bit depressing. It is not the first time I have heard this. I am new at experiencing it directly.

The politicians are just a magnification of the mindset on the ground. For Kenyans it is ‘just how things are done here’ and for many it is not corruption. Yet NGOs go bankrupt as employees and managers bleed the funds, conflicts start in teams, people get murdered. It is like a mouse running on a wheel. It is difficult to see that there could be any real change. The impact is that Kenya struggles to develop, feed its people and the billions of aid dollars get eaten up by corruption. There is a joke here ‘How do you know if an NGO has got funding? The Executive Officer has a new house or car.’ The money never gets to the project and often fake reports are done.

Peace Walk Kisumu - Ugali is the Vegemite of Kenya
If we take an evolutionary perspective, ‘pole pole’ (‘slowly slowly’ in Swahili) is the way. It is not hard to understand why there is violence in Kenya. The fundamental motivation of many is money, fuelled by a fear or scarcity and a lack of trust in other people. You may say that people everywhere are motivated by money, but this is on a level that makes everywhere else I have been in the world look positively altruistic. You have to be here to understand just how poisonous the obsession for money is. And the grab for ‘small money’ (a term I have learnt in Kenya) today stops people from working together for the greater good down the track. It is as thought people think if they work together they will get less of the pie. As though they think the size of the pie will be the same if they work by themselves or work together. Yet the pie gets a lot bigger when we work together. Without a sense of collective responsibility there is little hope for people to get off the mouse wheel.

It is a lack of trust that gets reinforced over and over again through corruption and the sense people have that they are on their own, and whatever they need to do to get ahead is OK.

Peace Walk Kisumu
There is a desire to end corruption on an intellectual level, but just like the woman who keeps going back to the abusive husband, there is a hook that is deeply embedded and in the blind spot of our consciousness that keeps us stuck in the rut we are in.

Living in this culture is impacting on me. It reminds me of Baz Luhrman’s ‘Sunscreen song’ (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTJ7AzBIJoI ) where he says ‘Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.’ I think living in Kenya is making me hard. Trying to work with teams here is a challenge and I don’t trust many people here. I am always wondering what they really want. My own integrity is not as strong either as the gap between my words and my actions grows. I used to be super reliable, but not so anymore as being reliable feels a lot harder here. I run late to meetings, I change my plans if it feels like it is too much hard work to get there, or the traffic is too much...

I am wondering if the sources of conflict in the world differ from context to context. Some conflict is fuelled by ideology and righteousness, such as religious conflict. Yet in Kenya conflict seems to be about basic survival, mistrust and individualism. There is a sense of righteousness in some conflict here, but a lot of it is justified through resource grabbing and power.

Peace Starts at Home workshop Nairobi
So solutions are not easy. There are a lot of people working hard to bring peace, justice, integrity and basic needs to Kenya. There are a lot of people who are genuinely committed to changing things and operating with integrity. Kenya has more NGOs doing social work of some kind than any other country in Africa. Yet while many are doing great work and making a real difference, many are feeding the money obsession and disempowering communities with handouts and giving money to people to participate in trainings and programs.

Domestic Violence Workshop Nairobi
As a psychologist I know that you cannot save people from their own journey even when they know they are in a destructive cycle. People need to find their own way. If people do not feel empowered or able to give up the addiction to, or face the fear that stops them changing then it is very difficult. I had a client who came to me for help in Australia. She told me she was stressed and there were a few things not working in her life. She later shared that she drinks a bottle of vodka every night and often can’t stand up. But in her view the alcohol wasn’t the real issue and she was not willing to look at it. Yet how can she have a life that works when she can’t stand up at the end of the night and she has young children that have an alcoholic mother.

Peace Starts at Home Workshop Nairobi
Kenya is evolving and there are many people doing great work. We cannot talk about peace in the world without acknowledging the intrapersonal work that each person needs to do to let go of the judgement, righteousness and fear that we use to justify killing and exploitation of resources. My role in this evolution is as much about my personal journey as what I can bring to others. I need to come to the issues with a balanced and peaceful mind or I will not be any assistance to the community. I can either add to the conflict by judging and being righteous, or I can find my own equanimity to be compassionate to all humanity.

Chilling Out
The Kenyan people are just trying to survive the best they can, just as we all are. I am not better than anyone here. Are you going to remain one of the billions of people that complains and seek peace through controlling other people, resources or power? Evidence would suggest that does not work. We need to develop our own peace and share what works for those who are interested. Not as an imposition but as we are invited. That is all the journey requires. Peace does not exist outside the framework of our bodies. All conflict is a reaction that occurs within us that we express through action either constructively or destructively. Peace exists only within the framework of the body. When we have peace within ourselves violence will be impossible in the world.

Lions at Nairobi National Park













Monday, 17 December 2012

Where is it?


Where is violence?

Violence does not exist
outside this package of Me

Peace does not exist
outside
               me

If violence did not exist in me...
                                                it could not exist in the world
If peace does not exist in me...
                                                it cannot exist in the world

Violence is
The heat in my body
The thoughts in my head
     The knots in my stomach
The pounding of my heart

All of which I label as
my experience

This labelling is not
consciously done

It happens so quickly that it
                   Snatches
away my choice and controls
My body
my actions        
and becomes

my expression in the world.

It becomes what people see
It becomes what I do
It becomes what I try to hide
The fist through the wall
The yelling
The tears
The insistence that it is your fault
I feel the way I do

It takes me over
And leaves you feeling assaulted

Flattened

Fearful to approach me

Violence is
The heat in my body
The thoughts in my head
     The knots in my stomach
The pounding of my heart

NOW I SEE
                                                NOW I SEE
                                                                                             NOW I SEE

I can no longer look to you to be my
                   Peace

Peaces exists only within the framework of my body

Violence exists only within the framework of my body

I need to start with this amalgam of
   Experiences I call ME
         
And watch them rise and try to
Take me over
Watch them with compassion

As the cycle of       
                   Blind reaction
                      Creates my suffering
              And extends to the suffering of the world

Stay in my body
      Stay anchored
          My sensations

Allow the reaction watch with love
 It is just cells, neurons and story

GET IT!

Cells             Neurons        Story

Cells             Neurons        Story

Cells             Neurons        Story

Where do they all exist?
Within this body / mind phenonmen

They only result in action when they
Take me over. Or when I choose.

Cells             Neurons        Story

Cells             Neurons        Story

Peace does not exist outside me
Conflict does not exist outside me

Cells             Neurons        Story

I am responsible
          I am responsible
                                      I am responsible

Not for all that I cannot control
          But for Cells Neurons and Story            
                   Controlling me

Tuesday, 7 August 2012

Cultural Narratives and Their Impact on Society


Cultural Narratives and Their Impact on Society
 
Once upon a time an Australian psychologist traveled the world to learn from different cultures about peace and human happiness. This particular woman had a good nose for sniffing out the stories cultures have about themselves that create their experience of life and the actions of the people. That psychologist is Celia Bray from Hobart, Tasmania. That psychologist is me. After 10months on the road, I am noticing the power of cultural narratives on the lives of people in their communities. I also notice the impact the narratives have on me as I adjust to each new culture.  The photos I use in this blog are of the work I am doing with people who are motivated, proactive and making a difference in their communities. They are not indicative of much of what I speak about in my experience in Kenya. I celebrate them in the work they are doing and we are all working together to turn around many of the narratives that hold Kenya back. 
 
In India I saw the contrast between rich and poor. Yet I also saw an empowered community who knew that it is through its own efforts that its future would be determined. There is a self confidence and a spirit of anything being possible. This is a creative culture.  One of the things I respect about the Indian culture is the focus on the collective good. There was a willingness to sacrifice self interest for the good of others. It was humbling for me and a gift to see that human beings can live that way after growing up in Australia, where individual success is key.


And then I landed apprehensively in Kenya. Apprehensive because I had heard that Nairobi is the most dangerous city in Africa and I had no idea how I would respond to Kenyan culture. As I was alighting from the Swiss Air flight (noted as they gave Swiss chocolate on the way out of the plane) I told myself that no matter what happened I would be fine as  I can get a taxi to a hostel if the organisation I was coming to work with forgot to pick me up. Deep breath!
 



As I walked to the arrival hall I was greeted by a man with a warm beaming smile holding a sign saying Celia Bray. I was relieved. It was there that I met Silas, a colleague who introduced me to the lovely generosity of Kenyan people. Since then I have been participating in Do No Harm training, facilitating workshops, hanging out with youth dance groups, building networks, researching youth needs and applying for work permits.
 
It seems that people like me in Kenya. My psychology training combined with community building has given me a piece of the peace building picture that people think is missing in Kenya. People know the rhetoric about peace and train people in the traditional didactic learning ways. However, as a pragmatic psychologist, I design processes that give full ownership of learning and participation to the groups I work with and empower them to be the solution. The learning is embodied. The gap between theory and practice has a bridge in the work I do. The feedback I have been receiving has delighted me and I feel like I have something to contribute to peace building in Kenya. The search is over. I have found my natural niche. My authentic passion has a place in the world and now it is time to fly.

 
Now, we started this story with cultural narratives. What do Kenyans say to themselves about being Kenyan and Kenya?

 
I know my narrative about Kenya is not neutral, as it is through my filters that the experience of Kenya is being sorted and made sense of. Bias included. This is what I have s to say so far...
 

‘Kenya, you are a country of warm hearted, fun and engaging people. There is a charm and cheeky flirtation behind the freely given ‘hello’ which is endearing and builds rapport. Women and men are relaxed around each other and there is an openness. There is a gushing and joyous willingness to help and it is given with love and graciousness. This is especially the case when one finds oneself lost somewhere. It is a place where security guards have a sense of humour and are happy to say hello. It is a place where high 5s are common. Humanity is first and hearts are full.

 
Yet I find a heart broken Kenya. Where so much hope for the future has been trampled on through corruption, inequity, not being given a voice and constantly being let down by those who promise but do not deliver. There is a sadness in the hearts of many people in Kenya that is akin to the passion, talent and dreams Kenyans have that they want to fulfil but feel powerless to live. The stories about why this is the case go back far, but one of the issues seems to be the hope that independence from British rule in 1963 brought and the lack of fulfilment of that hope by Kenyan politics.  Apparently the first Kenyan President, Kenyatta, gave a lot of privilege to his tribe (there are over 47 tribes in Kenya) of land and wealth which has resulted in inequity that other tribes have been struggling to overcome since. It has fuelled division between tribes and been a way politicians can use tribal alliance to advance their political careers ever since.
 

Over 1200 people were killed and 100,000 displaced in violence that occurred in the months after the Kenyan election in 2007. A key narrative about the cause of violence seems to be the perception of corruption and lack of fair play with the election results. The narrative held by the people is that the outcome of the elections was not accurately reflecting the voting of the people. People suspect corruption. This may or may not be the truth, and it is not the truth of this belief that I am here to explore, but rather the impact this perception has on the community.
 
Some of the cultural narratives I have heard so far in Kenya that impact on the social and economic health of the country seem to be:

·         Our government should give us the jobs, infrastructure opportunities we need. We can’t do anything until they do what they are supposed to do.’ It is a sense of entitlement and a sense of waiting for the government to fix the country. This is also the attitude and expectations of NGOs and the perceived rich.

·         White people have money and power.’ – resulting in white people being asked often for money, opportunities and marriage.

·         We have it harder than other people’. A sense of being the victim

·         ‘If you have money you are above the law. It is all about money. Money is power. We MUST get more money.’ More than anything else people talk about needing more money. They are willing to manipulate and exploit each other to get it. The desperation for money is strong and it is not related to poverty exclusively. The rich talk about it the same way as the poor.

·         No matter how hard it gets, we never give up. We keep on fighting.’ This is an optimism and a sense of resilience that helps the communities to keep hoping and keep motivated.

·         After the corruption at the last elections, there is no point voting or getting involved in politics. Politicians are just out for themselves. There is nothing we can do.’ – learned helplessness and resignation

·         Women belong in the home and are to obey men. They do not belong in positions of power.’ – which prevents women from standing up as leaders and they may also not get much support from men.

·         ‘Individual is more important than the community.’ Individuals will undermine each other to get a small piece of the pie rather than work together so everyone can gain. Examples are grants given to youth groups to run a project. Young people will divide the money amongst themselves and receive a very small amount each rather than use the money to for to generate a project which will benefit everyone and lift them out of their situation in the long term. They do not trust each other and do not work for long term collective gain, which keeps them all poor.

 
Some of the narratives are strengths that assist Kenya to be a peaceful country and others create division. The victim narrative, the helplessness and the sense not being responsible for their future is a key barrier to Kenya’s prosperity and peace. Time and work needs to be done to assist Kenyans to create a more empowering narrative and innovative spirit.
 


The individualistic narrative and the lack of innovative spirit is a big contrast to my experience in India and the situation I have encountered in Kenya has surprised me. In India there is a huge gap between rich and poor but all levels of society have pride in who they are and a sense of creating their own future. Corruption is present in India, but not the corruption of the spirit to the point of helplessness and despair that is found in Kenya.
 


There is no doubt the government could do a lot more and even if all Kenyan’s  grievances are correct, it does not need to stop Kenyans taking their future into their own hands and being proactive. The dependence on others and giving responsibility for their lives to others is a disempowering context and has implications on every aspect of Kenyan society.

 


Three may be several reasons for this. An obvious one is the history of Western cultures coming into ‘help’ through aid, charity work. For years westerners have seen images of starving children in Africa and so money is given to help. This is a noble intention, however it may be one of the reasons Kenyans see Westerners as the suppliers of money and put themselves in the role as passive receivers with their hands stretched for money. Kenyans may have given away some of their confidence in their own capacity to innovate, create their future and NOT need foreign aid. The fact that Kenya has more NGOs in Africa than anywhere else is interesting. Clearly a lot of people want to help, which is great when there are so many people who want to be looked after.  I am aware that aid and assistance can be a great thing when there is a crisis and the aid genuinely empowers communities to stand on their own, not when creating dependence. With so much money being poured into Africa, when one assesses the results, it does not add up. An example of this that still astounds me is as follows:
 

In Australia, the USA, Canada, India and most of the countries I know about, if a training program or workshop is offered, participants sign up and pay for their place. When they put their own cash into the program they are investing in their future and go to the program for the learning that they want to use when they leave the training to improve their lives.  There are circumstances where a workplace or organisation may pay for their staff to participate, again because it is an investment in the future for the organisation. There is ownership by participants at some level for what they gain from the program.
 
In Kenya. If a workshop is offered, participants are paid to attend. Their transport is covered, food covered and often they are given cash to be there (called a sitting fee). They are paid by the people conducting the workshop. I am shocked!  Who do you think attends in these circumstances? How much ownership or investment is there by the participants for the learning they gain? The purpose of the workshop for many participants becomes the promise of being paid to be there. I have been told that if I want people to attend then I have to provide money for participants.
 
So, what to do? There is a team of us who are keen to turn the hand out culture, the individualism and the helplessness around. We are not going to pay people to attend something that benefits them. We want genuine ways of engaging communities to create their own future so we are going to conduct an experiment. We are travelling around Kenya for a month to consult youth. We will run an open forum and invite young people from all walks of life to attend to discuss their ideas for their communities and their lives. Young people in Kenya range from 15yo to 35yo. We will not charge people to attend, but they will need to get themselves there and feed themselves. The invitation to attend will be on the basis of giving young Kenyans an opportunity to start a dialogue about their future and generate ideas about what they can do in their community. Some in our team excited about the new way of doing things and others are justifiably nervous about my approach. Kenyans have grown up in a culture where the NGO supplies everything. This experiment is a call to Kenyans to put themselves on the line to be the authors of their own destiny. It is a call for them to invest in themselves and develop the confidence in their ideas, wisdom, passion and leadership.


 

There is a lot of great work being done where communities are genuinely being engaged in creating their own solutions, however the general cultural narrative is one of passive dependence and powerlessness. Any spark of a self reliant culture is fragile and needs to be nurtured.
 
The finger pointing and blaming of others for our problems is not unique to Kenya. It is everywhere and we all do it. Creating space for people to create their own solutions and draw on the wisdom of their community is unusual in most parts of the world. We blame the government, big business, various ideologies, family members, people we don’t like... but it doesn’t always result in the dominant cultural narrative being one of expecting others to save us. Whenever we blame others, we give our power away, so it helps us to let go of blame and step powerfully into our own future.
 
I don’t think our western cultural narrative has helped. The cultural narrative of the West of being a super power that has ‘got it right and others should do things the way we do’ has resulted in the imperialism that disempowers indigenous cultures. The arrogance of the West in thinking it is needed to save the less economically powerful countries is difficult for me to swallow. Economic power does not mean wisdom, nor does it mean happiness. If we measured success through human happiness, the West would not rate so highly. For Kenya to catch the disease (dis – ease) that is caused by thinking that happiness comes through material wealth and money is a great tragedy.
 
I am not immune to the hypocrisy of my position, as  is a westerner coming to another country to work for peace, hoping to assist, just like all those who have come before and stuffed things up. At least I am in good company and perhaps I will also contribute nothing useful. ‘The road to hell is paved with good intentions.’ – A good heart and good intentions are not enough. Wisdom is required. It is a partnership. To use the words that have become well known in many Australian circles;

"If you have come to help me, you are wasting your time.
               But if you have come because your liberation is bound up with mine,
                                      then let us walk together…”
           Lila Watson, Australian Aboriginal woman, in response to mission workers
 
I am in Kenya for my own reasons, because it is fulfilling my own dream for a peaceful planet, from the peace in the hearts and minds of all human beings and its natural expression of peace in our world. Whether I contribute this to others is yet to be seen.  I hope that I am going to walk together with communities and allow others to contribute to me as much as  can contribute to others.
 
The research in Kenya will have its own natural journey. It is designed to empower a community but if no one participates then that is learning. If no-one attends or supports the process then questions can be asked. Finding out the reasons are part of what is needed to work out what communities want and how they want it. It could mean the narrative of ‘you have to give everything to us before we can do anything’ may be confirmed (of course it may be other reasons too, so we can’t assume anything at this point). If lots of people participate then it breaks the story that people in Kenya need to be spoon fed and that they won’t participate otherwise.
 
So, that is the challenge. What will the outcomes be? 

Stay tuned.