Sunday, 23 December 2012

Reflections on Conflict In Kenya

Team Meeting 

Working in the Kenyan context is like having the rug pulled out from under me over and over again. People talk the talk and the actions don’t match. Things seem money driven. From a Spiral Dynamics Integral (SDi) perspective (for info http://www.spiraldynamics.net/), the vMemes (core values) are strong red (individualistic, egocentric and power to the strongest). There is purple in there but only from a red perspective. The tribal element (purple) is mostly because they think that they will get what they want only if their tribal leaders are in power. So the tribal card is played by politicians and the people follow because their experience is that ‘when my person is in power it is our turn to eat’ – a phrase I have heard many people say. So it is all about survival and self interest at so many levels. To have a competitive political democracy in a culture where there is corruption and competitive tribal elements is like putting a match to petrol. The political structure is used to create tribal divisions so the powerful few can get into power.

Theme of Peacebuilding Workshop with Kuza Africa
Kuza Africa Workshop
From an SDi perspective, theoretically one would say that we need more blue, more infrastructure and mechanisms to mitigate the self interest. However I am learning the depth of vMemes systems. They are core. There is no point trying to impose a system to fix a problem because if the core vMemes are at a different level. The community will not be genuinely interested or ready and it will not work. In Kenya structures are put in place such as ‘The Anticorruption Commission,’ a legal system, and rules/regulations, but they are ineffective as the red value system runs through them. So they are corrupt and therefore they become another mechanism to express self interest. The police force is structured for corruption. For example, if a motorist breaks the law the police officer cannot fine the person on the spot. The police officer has to take the driver to the police station and process it there, then the driver goes to court and will be given the sentence in court. All this for a speeding ticket. Neither the motorist nor the police want the hassle of going to police station, the paperwork and court, so the driver can bribe the police and be let go. It is an industry as I have been told that the senior officers give the police on the street bribe quotas to meet every day.

Kuza Africa Workshop
And in the immigration department the officer looking after my file would not tell me how long the permit would take to process as he said it can vary depending... that I could ‘chip in’ (where his words). This is after he had been trying to hold my hand and wanted me to go to dinner with him so I got the package deal of harassment and wanting a bribe. Lucky me. It is a horrible power dynamic as this man could bury my file if I don’t play along. So I found someone else to assist me (which was not easy) who gave me all the information I needed in 2 minutes.

I suspect that the amount of money that changes hands through corruption would be a lot more than the official economy. It is on every level as the police get money from the matatu drives so the matatu drivers can get away with breaking the law, people in community projects organise with hotels and other services to get a commission for themselves when they pay the bill, and receipts are meaningless to anyone except the tax department as retailers are bribed to say that the amount was more than was actually paid. Much of the violence and killings starts with young people being paid by those in power and the attitude of the young people is that if they are paid they will kill, no question.

There is a sense of the community taking the law into their own hands. If a petty thief robs someone in the street and the community sees it, the community members will chase the thief and often kill them. I heard a story where a thief was robbing houses in an estate. The householders caught him and set him on fire. When the police arrived the police officer said that it would be a lot better if the community members finished him off before calling the police, so the policeman went away until the community had killed the thief. And this is all on the ground level. The community blames the politicians and police for corruption, but there is no need to go up the power hierarchy to find corruption and violence, it is everywhere.
Peace Workshop Open Space

At the gym I have been going to I have befriended a lovely woman from South America who has set up a business in Kenya. I was sharing some difficulties I was having with conflict and stories being created that are dividing the team I am in. She said that there is no way to escape corruption or to escape from employees stealing from the business, it is something that you just need to manage closely. This is sobering and a bit depressing. It is not the first time I have heard this. I am new at experiencing it directly.

The politicians are just a magnification of the mindset on the ground. For Kenyans it is ‘just how things are done here’ and for many it is not corruption. Yet NGOs go bankrupt as employees and managers bleed the funds, conflicts start in teams, people get murdered. It is like a mouse running on a wheel. It is difficult to see that there could be any real change. The impact is that Kenya struggles to develop, feed its people and the billions of aid dollars get eaten up by corruption. There is a joke here ‘How do you know if an NGO has got funding? The Executive Officer has a new house or car.’ The money never gets to the project and often fake reports are done.

Peace Walk Kisumu - Ugali is the Vegemite of Kenya
If we take an evolutionary perspective, ‘pole pole’ (‘slowly slowly’ in Swahili) is the way. It is not hard to understand why there is violence in Kenya. The fundamental motivation of many is money, fuelled by a fear or scarcity and a lack of trust in other people. You may say that people everywhere are motivated by money, but this is on a level that makes everywhere else I have been in the world look positively altruistic. You have to be here to understand just how poisonous the obsession for money is. And the grab for ‘small money’ (a term I have learnt in Kenya) today stops people from working together for the greater good down the track. It is as thought people think if they work together they will get less of the pie. As though they think the size of the pie will be the same if they work by themselves or work together. Yet the pie gets a lot bigger when we work together. Without a sense of collective responsibility there is little hope for people to get off the mouse wheel.

It is a lack of trust that gets reinforced over and over again through corruption and the sense people have that they are on their own, and whatever they need to do to get ahead is OK.

Peace Walk Kisumu
There is a desire to end corruption on an intellectual level, but just like the woman who keeps going back to the abusive husband, there is a hook that is deeply embedded and in the blind spot of our consciousness that keeps us stuck in the rut we are in.

Living in this culture is impacting on me. It reminds me of Baz Luhrman’s ‘Sunscreen song’ (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTJ7AzBIJoI ) where he says ‘Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.’ I think living in Kenya is making me hard. Trying to work with teams here is a challenge and I don’t trust many people here. I am always wondering what they really want. My own integrity is not as strong either as the gap between my words and my actions grows. I used to be super reliable, but not so anymore as being reliable feels a lot harder here. I run late to meetings, I change my plans if it feels like it is too much hard work to get there, or the traffic is too much...

I am wondering if the sources of conflict in the world differ from context to context. Some conflict is fuelled by ideology and righteousness, such as religious conflict. Yet in Kenya conflict seems to be about basic survival, mistrust and individualism. There is a sense of righteousness in some conflict here, but a lot of it is justified through resource grabbing and power.

Peace Starts at Home workshop Nairobi
So solutions are not easy. There are a lot of people working hard to bring peace, justice, integrity and basic needs to Kenya. There are a lot of people who are genuinely committed to changing things and operating with integrity. Kenya has more NGOs doing social work of some kind than any other country in Africa. Yet while many are doing great work and making a real difference, many are feeding the money obsession and disempowering communities with handouts and giving money to people to participate in trainings and programs.

Domestic Violence Workshop Nairobi
As a psychologist I know that you cannot save people from their own journey even when they know they are in a destructive cycle. People need to find their own way. If people do not feel empowered or able to give up the addiction to, or face the fear that stops them changing then it is very difficult. I had a client who came to me for help in Australia. She told me she was stressed and there were a few things not working in her life. She later shared that she drinks a bottle of vodka every night and often can’t stand up. But in her view the alcohol wasn’t the real issue and she was not willing to look at it. Yet how can she have a life that works when she can’t stand up at the end of the night and she has young children that have an alcoholic mother.

Peace Starts at Home Workshop Nairobi
Kenya is evolving and there are many people doing great work. We cannot talk about peace in the world without acknowledging the intrapersonal work that each person needs to do to let go of the judgement, righteousness and fear that we use to justify killing and exploitation of resources. My role in this evolution is as much about my personal journey as what I can bring to others. I need to come to the issues with a balanced and peaceful mind or I will not be any assistance to the community. I can either add to the conflict by judging and being righteous, or I can find my own equanimity to be compassionate to all humanity.

Chilling Out
The Kenyan people are just trying to survive the best they can, just as we all are. I am not better than anyone here. Are you going to remain one of the billions of people that complains and seek peace through controlling other people, resources or power? Evidence would suggest that does not work. We need to develop our own peace and share what works for those who are interested. Not as an imposition but as we are invited. That is all the journey requires. Peace does not exist outside the framework of our bodies. All conflict is a reaction that occurs within us that we express through action either constructively or destructively. Peace exists only within the framework of the body. When we have peace within ourselves violence will be impossible in the world.

Lions at Nairobi National Park













Monday, 17 December 2012

Where is it?


Where is violence?

Violence does not exist
outside this package of Me

Peace does not exist
outside
               me

If violence did not exist in me...
                                                it could not exist in the world
If peace does not exist in me...
                                                it cannot exist in the world

Violence is
The heat in my body
The thoughts in my head
     The knots in my stomach
The pounding of my heart

All of which I label as
my experience

This labelling is not
consciously done

It happens so quickly that it
                   Snatches
away my choice and controls
My body
my actions        
and becomes

my expression in the world.

It becomes what people see
It becomes what I do
It becomes what I try to hide
The fist through the wall
The yelling
The tears
The insistence that it is your fault
I feel the way I do

It takes me over
And leaves you feeling assaulted

Flattened

Fearful to approach me

Violence is
The heat in my body
The thoughts in my head
     The knots in my stomach
The pounding of my heart

NOW I SEE
                                                NOW I SEE
                                                                                             NOW I SEE

I can no longer look to you to be my
                   Peace

Peaces exists only within the framework of my body

Violence exists only within the framework of my body

I need to start with this amalgam of
   Experiences I call ME
         
And watch them rise and try to
Take me over
Watch them with compassion

As the cycle of       
                   Blind reaction
                      Creates my suffering
              And extends to the suffering of the world

Stay in my body
      Stay anchored
          My sensations

Allow the reaction watch with love
 It is just cells, neurons and story

GET IT!

Cells             Neurons        Story

Cells             Neurons        Story

Cells             Neurons        Story

Where do they all exist?
Within this body / mind phenonmen

They only result in action when they
Take me over. Or when I choose.

Cells             Neurons        Story

Cells             Neurons        Story

Peace does not exist outside me
Conflict does not exist outside me

Cells             Neurons        Story

I am responsible
          I am responsible
                                      I am responsible

Not for all that I cannot control
          But for Cells Neurons and Story            
                   Controlling me